Speculation: We are part of essentially a cosmic bet. Pick your dualistic concept - good evil, positive negative, balance whatever. So the bet is you must hide everything in plain sight. We have free will. See who wins. All of it is just layers of bullshit. Every time you find a new layer like enlightened, awakened, woke, ascended etc, its another layer of bullshit, just more nuanced. Well fuck that (yes i'm ok, just angry). The bottom line for me is this. Why do I need testing or schooling? For what? If I came from the source, then what's to prove/learn? Or if im god experiencing itself then that's a pretty cruel god. What if the illusion we have to escape is not our individuality/ego, but the truth that sets us free is that there is not one one loving source that we rejoin, but instead a meaningless nothing? Why is that so antithetical? What if that's the game? Why are we so afraid of nothing? Is something so great?