I (19M) was finally getting somewhere with a relationship. Last night we actually made out in the back of my car(I know, so romantic). I don’t know why, but I got so caught up, that I didn’t realize I was pushing it too quickly. The next day comes, and I try to be direct with her, telling her how I felt. That I wasn’t comfortable about what I did. It was consensual, but it still felt wrong. She mentioned that she should have said something, but didn’t. My first mistake was asking why. My second mistake was taking this relationship as seriously as I did. I made promises that came off as disingenuous. Ultimately I hurt her. I understood that this was all on me. I caused her so much pain, and I destroyed something so meaningful to her. I pretty much spent the whole day miserable. My bussing job was hell today, something I normally handle very well. My sensitivities flared up, something that never usually bothers me anymore. I had a panic attack, something that hasn’t happened to me since I was 13. And my crying was non stop. It’s all on me, and there’s nothing I can do about it. I feel what I did was unforgivable, and rightfully so. I’m not looking for pitty, I’m not asking to be consoled. I just needed to vent

TL;DR:I fucked over this girl, and I felt miserable the whole day. Still do. Not sure if I can handle trying this again, as I can’t stand the thought of hurting someone again.