So i know I'll get guff on this one way or another.

I generally service straight guys. I've always been like that. I've never really hooked up with truly gay guys because generally I'm not what they are looking for.

I don't care about anyone's opinion if the guy is really straight or not, it's not black and white.

Generally it's swallowing for them then leaving. There are a handful i let rail me. It is what it is. They do their thing then go back to their person. Whatever.

But there are a couple that are very very regular. And one that I feel.... Owned by. Which, whatever. We're adults.

What my point is, the ones I'm willing to do anything for and always try to accommodate... Don't like communicating. Makes them feel like I'm wanting a relationship and they are just wanting a release without having to think about it and they are only doing it because it's an available option. They aren't that way and don't want to think about it cause they'll stop or whatever. I'm just trying to make my schedule work. Just wanting direction so i know what's up and when to be where. Nothing more.

Well ok, if something works it works.

But i completely lose interest when I find out they are talking to other guys and hooking up with other guys.

If they go home to their chicks, i love it. Just slammed your chick and you need me to finish it, I'm down. Want me to pregame you so you last longer for your chick, I'm down.

And some of my other regulars, that are bi, i know they hookup with other guys and have other interests but need serviced once in a while. I'm totally fine with it.

But the few that make me go through the most drama about relationships and not into guys and blah blah, as soon as I've found out another guy is involved... I shut down.

I don't understand it.

I don't want anything more from them than what is there, but I think the mental ... anguish makes it feel like more is there. Idk.