I don't really know what to say. I'll try to go in bullets, I guess:

• Background
  • I'm in my second year of undergrad, about to be a junior, and I'm in the USA. I currently live with my family, and I always have. Currently though, my family is my mom, her husband, his son, and their two babies.
  • I'm really unhappy here. I struggle to call it abuse, but I guess it's been tons of intentional/unintentional emotional abuse. I don't even feel like I belong here; it doesn't even feel like there's room for me. I feel like I'm deteriorating here; I'm in this destructive cycle of where I can't thrive or barely even survive. Today just happened to be a depressing day. I was going to give some backstory, but I really want responses/help, so I'm trying to keep this short.
• Work/money
  • I have an on-campus job, but it's only for me to work when school is in session. Monday, for example, was the last day of the semester. I can't get anymore hours until summer starts since I said I'd work in the summer. Either way, it's $12 for only 12 hours a week. It's better than nothing, but it's definitely not something that I could live off of.
  • I also have a paid internship position, but it's complicated. It pays well, but I can't really survive off of it because it has a set amount of hours that you can do in a 12-month period. You can basically either work a lot in a short period of time to use up your hours or you can spread it out--do little hours throughout the year. I'm doing the latter, and because there's an amount of hours, that means it doesn't matter the times you have, you make the same amount of money at the end. Long story short: It's not really money that I could get to live off of because it wouldn't make enough to do part-time like that and last.
• I'm saving to buy my best friend's car from her family, and I was planning to live in it, but with COVID, it's less able to be done because a lot of my survival would've come from being on-campus. Like using the gyms for showers and the kitchen in the dorms if I needed to or the fridge at my tutoring center.

I just don't really know how I'm supposed to survive by leaving home. I saw someone talk about this thing called Job Corps on another thread, and I looked into it. It looks like their "About Us" page is broken though.

I'm just really tired of feeling like I'm slowly dying staying here. It's so difficult dealing my mom and the family. Oh, and I forgot to mention that I had runaway bags packed, but they're in my boss's office on-campus. She can get them for me whenever I need them, but my problems have always been here and I have been preparing since I was 17 (2017) and would've been a minor. I turned 20 last week, and it's been a little dreadful, especially this year too. COVID just exacerbated my problems and magnified the issues. It also took away the only way I had to cope and stay sane--school. Even just driving away from home, but now I don't even get to do that. I just want to leave, but I want to make it. :\ This post really isn't how I want it to be, but my brain is mush right now because today has been really, really low. I already have a folder with my birth certificate and social security card, although my mom has me on the house's deed and on one of her credit cards that I've been asking her to remove me from for what will be about 8 months.