39 yr old female. Working through the csa with therapy and support groups.

Yesterday I started to have a really strange sensation of clitoral arousal, which to my spreads to my lower belly. In the evening time my legs are restless, I am squirmy and it just feel completely uncomfortable. Is this a . During the day, I also felt squirmy and found myself continuously shifting my body positions to get comfort.

Since I was a child I’ve had a particular sexual attraction/ kink that came from the abuse. Since then, I’ve used that kink to orgasm. When I do that now, this sensation of arousal doesn’t go away. It’s not a mental arousal.

For the past weeks I’ve been working on settling a deeply intentional practice of my body more.