Not gonna trauma dump too hard but I will put a TW:Alcoholism, heroin and pill addiction. so all my life I grew up around a Pill addict mom, severely alcoholic unmedicated bipolar father and addict uncles, and as a result I was around 13/14 when I started smoking and drinking. But up till starting therapy recently I’ve wondered if me constantly drinking well binge drinking for days or weeks at a time as a 14 year old stealing my dads liquor would be considered “addictive tendencies”…and also everytime I get near alcohol or even really drink I stop myself because I am so scared of losing control like I used too, yes I was a kid but there where days I would black out. Get violently angry an t top it off…my parents used to give me it then when I said I was down or sad ab what or something happening it would get brushed off which would lead me too smoke and drink excessively