Hey M 23 I been doing this messed up sleeping habit for like when I was 13 u know teenager hormones. I can’t sleep without release:( On average I can say on average 1-2 times a day

When I’m sick, no Job, laying in bed all day, anything and everything that doesn’t evolve me moving! I can do it 3-6times a day

Sry for my vent but I’m just so lost Right now as A MAN my 14-20s was a football room with brothers ready to go to war ,wrestling, Track n field, lifting weights, going to parties, feeling macho! After football died out for me in college life spiraled into work, work, work ,terrible relationship, work now work&school

I feel like at this point my addiction to chase my dopamine high with my self penis ejaculation is just terrible for my dating life, social battery, fitness, mental health and just every day task!

Dating is embarrassing like so bad to the point I feel disgusted to myself Like I keep saying that ‘I would rather use Seggs toys’ or’ I prefer my hand’making these dumb jokes to get a rise out of my peers but internally I’m losing my hope with women

My imagination is so dirty that as soon as I start interacting with my partner physically,phone, fact time my mind skips all the gears and just go turbo mode my average fap time is increasing 3x the normal amount, I get obsessive and I get excited like ALL Reason is gone I’ll fly out to u no matter what!

I over think everything all time and my dating life is more using my Penis then I do with my own HEART! I’m tired of my penis deciding everything, I’m done with the loneliness, hate losing the ones I wanna keep in my life , and doing this unhealthy addiction is Just to much :(