I'm in my first real adult relationship with a woman. She's smart, and beautiful and confident, you know all the good things a person should be. She doesn't have a problem with holding hands or kissing in public but I do.

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I'm not ashamed of her or anything like that but I'm kinda worried that she'll start thinking I am. I just get nervous sometimes. Like when its a lot of people around and she tries to hold my hand but I slightly pull away.

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We've talked about it and she says she understands, that it doesn't bother her but I can tell she either feels attention starved when we're out in public all day or feels like shes pushing me when she tires to kiss me and I avoid her. IDK maybe its the interracial thing(I'm of color and she isnt) in an unnecessarily white state or just me feeling like people are watching.