I (24) and they (30) have been talking off and on for a year. They make me feel so bad about myself from hating on my career choices to invalidating my feelings. We’re just a situationship and it’s whatever. I’ve had these so many times but none that have ever made me feel like this. They constantly love to say we’re such good friends but I’m very much so on the back burner and just for sex while they go on trips with all of their friends (usually their ex involved since they still love their ex) but the farthest we’ll go is their bedroom and yes, I have voiced this cause I mean we live in a city with countless places near us to check out even just for a few minutes but they’ll go hundreds of miles with other friends. Idk why I get so frustrated when they constantly talk about their friends all the time but they also only talk about their friends when we’re together like I can’t even say how my day has gone since there’s no room to talk and when I do get a chance there’s somehow only time for sex or sleeping. We’ve had multiple talks about how they’ve made me feel worthless (in so many ways that I would get into but I’m just so exhausted). They also neglect their own vag health that in turns messes with mine cause we have sex so much and bacteria and what not gets shared. This is also the issue with trying to see them soon because I’m on meds again.

Idk, they just brought up another trip they’re taking and it just makes me feel so bad. Every time we talk, I feel worse and worse about myself. But I just can’t seem to leave. I’ve tried to leave just as many times as I’ve given them chances. Like I know I deserve better but there’s no one around to treat me better. (I’ve looked on apps, irl dating things, literally everywhere and anything).

They’ve made me question so many things about myself that it hurts me so much because they just always assume I don’t think things through and can’t take care of myself.

I’m supposed to see them Wednesday but I’m still on meds so I feel like I should cancel since I can’t have sex and they’ll be annoyed and just probably wish they went to their ex for sex instead.

They even asked me if I was insecure when I was annoyed that they brought up another ex when I was trying to make a cute memory and they couldn’t help but bring up that they already did it with another ex.

They always say how they miss me and want me and only sexts me and then get frustrated when I don’t text first but they kinda make me feel bad when I initiate anything.

If you’ve seen my posts before, it’s the same person. I just barely have anyone irl or online so I just love being by this person sometimes. I’m sorry I’m a broken record but I really have no one to talk to

I also really wanna see the best in them but maybe all of their exes breaking up with them should be a sign.