I’m posting under my anonymous account for mental health reasons (I’m bracing for a wave of bro-vets to tell me what a piece of shit I am for not being “in the shit”. I don’t consider my time in the military to be “real service”.

I guess it’s because I was always far away from the fight. I supported drone warfare in various capacities for 10 years. I witnessed horrible shit. Collateral damage calls going the wrong way, civilians being executed by terrorists while we watched (because we didn’t have authority to shoot), women and children accidentally killed —> all stuff that keeps me awake at night.

I guess what I’m saying, is there anyone else out there who feels like they’re less than because of their military service? My VA doctor kind of reassured me (prompted me to think of the lives saved, blah, blah, blah), but I guess I just feel empty inside and wonder what was it all for?

This article made me feel a little bit better.

“Cry in the Sky”