So I’m not doing so well since my boyfriends overdose. I’ve had constant panic attacks every day since like 30 mins between each. My psychiatrist has me on two different benzodiazepines daily for them. I have never had this level of anxiety since I finally opened up about my sexual abuse as a child. I feel like I’m barely functioning at this point. Oh and to top this off I have to move because my landlord is renting out the entire unit as one instead of individual rooms. I applied for one so I’m hoping I get it. I just didn’t need this added stress. I’ve barely eaten anything, constantly having stress hives and I’m starting to lose hair. I really don’t feel like a danger to myself (no self harm or suicidal thoughts) so I don’t think I need a hospital but I’m just kind of at a loss. I can barely do anything or focus on work. I took yesterday off as a mental health day and I spent it panicking. I just took my medicine so I’m okay now. Still severely anxious but no longer shaking.

Edit: my boyfriend is alive but I’ve seen my mom OD a bunch so it is a trauma response for me.