So for the first time in Twitch as a relatively new streamer I was insulted like crazy today.

I usually had good streams. However I finally had gotten a camera to do facecams to improve the quality of my stream and while I got a little more viewers it was total toxicity. I got called fat and I was being randomly insulted and I had literally said nothing wrong. They just joined the stream insulted me and I played it off and made jokes. I know I'm fat. I suffer from it everyday. I've come close to suicide because of it. I have nothing but anger and I don't know how to lose it. I expect people to insult me for it but I felt blindsided today. I hadn't streamed in a month and I finally had the chance to and this is what happened.

It may seem soft and all but it happened 5 times today in different incident from different people. They weren't having a fun time chilling they were just ready to insult me. And it hurts. The weights cut deep Tbh. I can mask my emotions but it always hurts.