I’m a college student going for a degree in music education. My primary instrument is clarinet, and I love music with my whole heart. My professor was great at first. He was helpful, he was sweet, I loved him. But now, it feels like he has a problem with everything I do. I mark my music in a way that works for my brain and he tells me I’ve marked too much or the way I’ve marked it won’t help me, or it’s wrong. I’m neurodivergent and have certain ways my brain works to learn things, and deviating from those things is hard. He also won’t give me any freedom to learn things THROUGH the music I’m playing. He gives me material to play on TOP of my solo piece which is fine, but he expects it to all be fully prepared from week to week, which is just too much for me. He just keeps telling me I need to develop my technique, but he’s making me use classical techniques when the music I’m playing isn’t classical. He won’t let me deviate from the basics because everyone else is more developed than me. I don’t know what else to do. Im doing what works for me, but he’s telling me no and all the things he’s telling me to do aren’t making me better. They’re just making me feel bad about myself and not want to play anymore