30m single unemployed. My whole life been a disaster. Bad choices, second guessings, bad lucks, abonded and lonely and miserable. Thats pretty much my life up to 30years. I have this fear when i try to do something, try to start something try to go through the day i always assume its gonna worse for me or gonna go wrong. Simply even before I start it I picture its gonna go wrong. In my life for years i only had bad lucks. So now im totally given up my life and simply hope anything is never gonna work out.

I dont whine or complain, im not even trying to make things works, im not hoping for things to work, i dont wait for miracles or any suprises, i simply assume things gonna go wrong and they literally do. I have rejected by every interview so far, rejected by girls and im single at 30, and now i dont have any friends or any social life, just living in my parents basement, and you know what im not even hope or wishing anything to change cause i know its not. I was unemployed when I needed a job, i was single when i wanted a beautiful teen age, im soo unlucky, and years of frustrations one after another had stole my taste for living, my gut to compete in life, what should i do else when i have only bad lucks?

Trust me i only get suprised if anything worked,cause deep inside i know usually its not.