30m single unemployed. Ever since i know my life has been a quite frustration. I have only had bad lucks and heart breaks only. No sort of happiness or no any day of quite easy relived mind.

I have failed the my advanced level exam, i had no idea how to pass it. I tried twice but failed both time. I chose a career education through a private institution but after a degree i came to realized it wasn't the job for me. I wasn't good at all or had no any passion toward the job. This job is in construction estimates where i had to work in sites all over the country where most are rural areas and no sort of humans or any social life. This made me hate my life as i wanted a office job in a big city with a social life, simply i seek comfort even over a huge salary. Cause me being a social introvert i dont want any more a non social isolated life, all i need is to be in the updated society. I have never had a sallary in this job cause im not good at this, and i hate it absolutely. I dont even know how to apply for this job with a cv cause i still dont know my job role, and trust me every time i have to apply this job through internet or newspaper it makes me physically puke, cause i hate this job and its mental trauma. Like working in a rural area in sites with machinery etc, also this includes mathematics which I'm not good at. And it was the reason i failed my advance level too. This wrong career and failed exam has literally made me a living dead person. I think all day sitting home what to do with life. I don't have a single qualification to apply any job. And im 30now. Failed a/l exam means im never eligible to apply any sort of desk jobs. This have made my whole life hell. Im thinking all day.

Im unemployed for 4years now. All my friends have jobs and they are married with their loved ones. Im just hiding away from them cause i have nothing in life, ive been rejected by so many girls, most of them chose another over me, i dont hate them but i hate me for born this way. Who would like a 30year dude who never had a sallary. Im soo at the worst place in my life, even single people have some sort of income comin ng ,to me i have no money no dating life no social life nothing.Every time I think i will get something good in lifeit turns worse, every time when i think i will smile it turns worse. Idk why i dont have a single happinesses in life, even a bit, a job a gf at the right age thats all im asking from the universe but they never give it to me. Even a job to keep my day going 😞