I'm 41F. I'm saved and I love the Lord. I'm blessed more than I even realize. I feel bad right now because Christmas should be a time where celebrate the birth of our Lord. However, I find myself sad and starting to no longer enjoy Christmas.

I know people who have lost parents. I know people who are divorced or single. I know people who are childless. But I don't really know anyone who must experience ALL of this simultaneously as I do. I live a life of loneliness that most people cannot truly even understand. I do have pets. :) I am starting to wonder if my life is meant to be lived in solitude. Maybe this is my thorn in the flesh. But, I am confused by this, as we are not meant to be alone??? Will ministry come from this? If so, how?

I think I'm a great person. I'm usually very giving an upbeat. I have friends, but they all have their own families. Sometimes people invite me to their homes for the holidays and I usually accept out of kindness, but I have grown tired of being at someone else's house watching them spend time with their families. This time of year is very family-centered, and it's hard. I'm also tired of listening to the same Christmas songs that I used to love. So many of them are about family or Christmas romances. Maybe the Lord is just saying not right now, and I'm ok with that. It's just hard sometimes.

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