I've thought I was asexual my entire life. Long story short, I've recently come to recognize I might not quite be.

I've never learned or figured out how to jerk off. I know. This sounds ridiculous and sad. I've never really felt the need or want to until I've been in an LDR with someone who makes me feel things I never have before, and we can't meet irl bc of covid restrictions and money.

There are two caveats to this.

(1) I am a man with the female equipment. I don't want to say the word bc it might get caught in the auto censor, but I figured that this is not the type of question that caused references to the word to be banned. Either way, penetration, at least in front, really isn't an option at all.

(2) I have some sensory issues due to autism, which may be linked to why I've never enjoyed it before. If the dichotomy of deep touch/shallow touch makes sense, shallow touches like being gently patted or stroked on any part of my body don't feel pleasant or comfortable. I hate having my shoulder patted.

One thing I've figured out feels kind of good is kind of pushing really hard against my general crotch area with two layers of clothing on, so it all kind of interacts together and grinds (???) against it. But that really only works for one or two strokes.

Whatever you think is "too obvious," or too precise, please say it anyway. I really want to learn and I don't want to turn to porn, bc as I understand, it's not the best representation of how to get pleasure when you've got female anatomy.

TL;DR: help a really confused guy learn to masturbate with the equipment he's been dealt