To give context..hubby and I are older now 52F/62M and we took a long break due to travel for work and illness for me. We have recently gotten back into the LS, we were always a couple to couple play, with a few MFM encounters. Since getting back into it we both wanted to try single play. Mine were met with horrible outcomes..too rough, no boundaries, and no getting it up. I understand that in our age group, but damn. Anyway, we had our first couple play and the husband side was horrible, not interested at all. To the point that we left, but before that my hubby was whooping it up on his side. I do not begrudge him this, but I reacted after in a way I had never before..I was mad, jealous, insecure and crying! Now the thought of him by himself it a no go. I do not want to be alone either, it just made me feel skeezy. Also, hubby is Bi and plays with men alone and I'm fine. We even had a MFM with full contact that was fucking awesome! So why do I feel this way? Is this fair to him. I know it's not tit for tat, but I feel like maybe I'm being unfair to him. Ideas?