My husband and I are new to the lifestyle. I would say that before we got into things I was pretty personally body positive. Now, all of the sudden. I hate the way I look. I am to tall, to big, to unattractive. I can not get out of my head. I feel like the people on the swinger sites all have perfect bodies, and I am a mom, with cellulite, a fluffy tummy, and saggy boobs.

Not only that, we plan to attend a New Years Eve event that we have been invited to casually. I know that it will call for something skimpy and I don’t know if I feel ok enough with ‘me’ to be ok enough to even go…

I know my man finds my body attractive, it is me that sees everything wrong with every inch of it.