I’m lost, I’m broken from all the shit I’ve been put through in this life. Recently I can confidently say I’ve hit rock bottom and let life and all it’s endeavors consume me. Families not really a big thing for me. So solely relying on friends for many MANY years for consolation and support hasn’t also worked. Tried therapy, all that bs. Ultimately my happiness comes down to me and no sort of coexistence. I don’t expect someone to come and save me. But it is also extremely lonely knowing everyone doesn’t royally gaf about you. I’m going through the motions ever day just to wake up to another day of the same shit. The cycle always continues, as it has for my entire life. I would have unalived myself a long time ago if it wasn’t for the fear of screwing it up and making my waking/ conscious life 10x worse. Not exactly sure why I came to reddit as a last resort. But maybe someone out there actually knows this feeling. Has been there this. Maybe someone can not necessarily beg for my anonymous life to not end. But provide a light, a helping hand and share a story that helped them through the deepest darkest times.