I hate how I can't kill myself. I love my family, cats and other things ill miss even though people on reddit and irl can be scumbags committing suicide right now won't fix anything. I'm not mentally made out for this world but I'm going to atleast wait till my mom and grandpa pass. Hopefully by 60 or 70 years old suicide won't be so stigmatized and if a person wants to end their own life they can have that option . I'm only 22, losing all my friendships and having my boyfriend in jail for weed charges and my family either in my personal space because they love me . Or my ex friend and sister threatening to call the cops on me or beat me up for trust passing . I just see no point in being alive and I wish suicide was a more available option especially since I don't have any money. I am just forced to be here for other people and I hate it . But soon as my mom dies I'm leaving.