I am kinda new to this sub, just scrolling its really nice to know theres others that struggle with the same stuff. You all come here and tell each other you love each other when nobody else will and that alone made me smile.

You all doing pretty alright, caring for randoms and all that i hope you all know maybe youve saved a stranger before. You are all valid just for that.

I havent been able to shake a craving to end everything- i dont know if i dont have a plan or have too many plans. But as i scroll all of the posts, i can at least know i am not alone with this. It doesn't make me insane. There were several life events leading to the conclusion that might be better.

The other problem- i have almost 25k followers that dont know that side of me! That isnt a lot but its my income, and it gets severely in the way of my job when i cant pick myself up. Its kinda like being a lead guitarist for a band and having stage fright... I know theres no solution for that, but i would like to share with you guys how i still go and do my job and i need other suggestions.

So far i can listen to and sing barbie girl by aqua at full blast and sing it...that fixes everything. Any other suggestions? Or songs that also fix everything..?