Update to my old post. I’m sitting in my bathroom letting the shadow people do their thing outside. I feel way better now cause it ain’t adrenaline or like schizophrenia delusions. I feel almost relaxed, like myimbs are stone It’s fixation , ocd type. Feeling a little stunned look at the door and suddenly the darkness is split by the light on the door, and it’s moving and forming pattens, slowly opening abd closing or rearranging in a fixed loop. My wyes get dry staring at them. ain’t even paranoia. The Fear is a reprieve from the emptiness.

I gotta jump up turn on the light real quick and piss now I’m hiding in the restaurant and there’s a light that blinks on the mirror. It’s a psychosis without thoughts or scenarios simple decoroon to repetitive elements near the edge of a comfort zone. I’ve been here before, so I guess this is just the real food meth I had n4. Only got a few Benzod left, can I potentials with beer? Like when he helps me out buddies- a 10 ur meth addict who’s got nothing but good at heart.