One of my partners was a photographer. One day he landed a job in a private club, that ran model sessions for members. A few weeks into the job he confessed to me this job was all about very adult acting and posing. And he expressed a desire to make me a model in these shootings alongside his confession. His confidence gave me a big boost.

Many discussions, another week and a health check later, I came to the club as a model. Other members already were there when I arrived. An assistant helped me prepare, I got a shave and I got to chose lingerie. The scene included silverscreen, a stool. Volunteers helped with makeup, the club held a repository of lingerie, plugs, dildos, shoes. So I found myself half an hour later in lingerie spreading for the audience in a session. Together with a male model I had to pose for the club audience.

Despite the high bar and the risk, I really enjoyed myself with that male model in front of this club audience. In later sessions, my partner directing the scene asked me to work with a girl, too.