I’m not ashamed about my job, I enjoy it (most of the time) and I think I’m quite good at it. But after a sh*t show of a day yesterday which is a whole other story, my mum has been needing to ‘talk’ and if I’m being unfair it would men her unloading all her stuff onto me. But I think (thanks to therapy) I handled it fairly well, I acknowledged where I had messed up and how I need to do better (my son and I are living with my parents for now, after I had to get away from my abusive ex) So I have a day job, but to help with my bills I do sw on the side, no face out, but some of the photos might have some of my tattoos in them. And mum throws at me that my niece found out and thinks I’m disgusting. And you know what, I’ve often thought not very nice things about the cult…..sorry church she joined but I’ve never been cruel. I don’t think I’m asking for advice, and she might be 21 and married with a kid, but it hursts more than I thought it would. When she was little I was always there for her, I even protected her from some of her mum’s stressed moments, she stayed with me lots and we were so close. As she got older I got the feeling like she didn’t think me and my son were a legitimate part of the family and I definitely know when there were times she pushed me out. I’m sorry, I’m a bit all over the place. Thanks for anyone who ‘listened”

Edit Cause I just found out what she said, my mum read out the messages, something along like lines of she’s known for ages and didn’t want to say anything but she’s saying this out of love, that (me) is having sex for money and doing it where I’m doing it and I have some creepy guy staying with me, and that she doesn’t want her son around someone disgusting like (me). So ouch, and forget about all the times I looked after her when she was little and even older, listened to her problems, helped her out with things, mediated between her and her mum. Hence the big ouch. And in case anyone is interested the “creepy” man is a very close friend of mine who I love and who has been staying with me for a bit because he’s struggling with his own issues and he’s been so helpful around my place and is caring and kind, and looks after me in ways I’ve never had before, I’m grateful to have him in my life. Unlike apparently my niece is.