Trans woman here. I’ve been with the same girl for over two years and I’m so happy. We actually met because I was a slut who used to do professional bdsm back in the day. And since then I have lived a much more tame monogamous life. I love this girl and she genuinely wants to settle down with me and live happily ever after. And part of me wants that too! There are some complications and roadblocks but we can get through those.

Just recently though I realize I miss the idea of… being a ho. I always told myself if her and I didn’t work out I’d gladly get into SW and amateur porn, onlyfans/fansly, selling pics, underwear, etc. I actually told her that and she was a little shocked and surprised but understanding. And she was kind enough to sit me down and ask me if she was holding me back from living a more adventurous free sexual life.

Tbh idk. I love this girl and I could never choose to be with other people when I have her in my life. But I’m still semi-connected with other workers back in my ho era who do much more work than I ever did. And sometimes I miss it or envy them. Group sex events, threesomes/foursomes or letting a married man or woman or other watch me banging their spouse. Getting paid for being hot, for being free and sexual.

My partner is great, she’s incredibly free and very sexual as well. But I could never share her or let myself sleep with other folks if I’m with her. And hell maybe it’s just jitters. I truly think I could live happily without going back to my old ways, but is there a right and wrong to this? The money is great but there was something so fulfilling and empowering to me. It made me feel incredible to have control of myself and my body. Would ya’ll ever miss it if you gave it up? Or were you happy to move forward without it. For me it’s not an act of necessity but pure sexual enjoyment