So idk if its because I'm more anxiety riddled or what after COVID . but the thought of going to an appointment/session seems like mentally a lot for me. Its the new person thing for me. Like having to be entertaining and wonder if that person has negative thoughts about my weight gain. (I've actually lost 18 lbs but still have 12 to go) or if I'm not being peppy enough. Or entertaining enough. But then I also have to worry about if this person is legit and what this person is expecting. I used to be able to do sessions like it was a normal friendly meeting and now sometimes I feel like a hostage. I also worry about wether this person is going to try to be suspicious. So many worries and I enjoyed SW before. But now. Its so much anxiety. Sorry . Just ranting/venting. I am hoping I'm not the only one. 😔