I miss the soft brush of undiscovered touch roaming on the surface of my skin. Warm breath, taking its time exploring me. Lips learning the path from my cheek to my collarbone. Hands that linger on the right spots: my throat, my waist, my lower back. Eyes penetrating mine, begging for permission to venture forward, desire shedding off the heat waves from the surface of their body. I miss feeling wanted. I miss feeling needed.

I miss anticipation. The excitement coursing through my body at the sight of an unexpected attempt at communication. I miss getting ready for someone with intention. I miss connection.

I miss the build up of friendship. Care and love developing over time. Questioning if actions mean more than meets the eye. Hoping you may feel the same way I do. Lingering glances and stealing chances to touch each other. Being as close to one another while still maintaining the illusion of just friendship.

I need to feel the heat coming off of your body as we sit side by side watching a movie we are not really watching. I need to feel your nerves escalating with mine, anticipation building as we both debate making the first move. I need you to make it first as I enjoy the feeling of being pursued. I need your touch to find its way to me. Your hand on mine, your fingers softly brushing my skin. We stay facing forward, both our heart rates increasing at the same time. I lean closer to you, turning toward your body. You turn to look at me and your eyes dart down to my lips then back at my eyes. I catch your gaze and slightly lean in as you decide to move forward all the way to me. We are just centimeters apart, our breath caught in our throats knowing we’re seconds away from what we desire. Slowly, softly, you lean in, your lips meeting mine for the first time. I open up, I let you in, and I find relief in you. I need you.

Reach out if this resonates with you.. Looking to meet in person, open to long distance as long as we can meet often enough to keep each other satisfied, whatever that may look like for us. Best of luck on your search.