This is my third real experience with DMT and it was my first experience mixing DMT and LSD. For some context, I am highly experienced with drugs of all kinds, but I am especially seasoned when it comes to psychedelics. I have had hundreds of trips on mushrooms and LSD, up to 8 grams of mushrooms and 700ug of LSD. I had recently acquired a DMT vape, something I have been wanting to try for quite a while. I had two experiences with just DMT and  cannabis that were very weird and intense, but it was something I could handle. This set my mind on wanting to break through so I decided to mix the DMT with some LSD on this day. 

Setting: This happened while I was on vacation at my grandparents house in Wisconsin, mostly in my room. This will become important later in the story. 

Set: My mindset was generally good, not the best, but good enough to trip. One of the reasons I set as my intention to take the psychedelics was to stop drinking so much alcohol, a habit I have been struggling with. Without further ado, let's get into the report. 

Trip Report: At around 4 P.M. I took 4 tabs of LSD. I had a slight tolerance from microdosing so I would say it actually felt more like 2 tabs. I began to come on with all of the typical LSD feelings. I started to get this tingly, electric feeling running throughout my forehead and my spine. My hands started to get clammy and colors became brighter. I decided to walk to the Chinese restaurant down the street to get some food before I really came on. The trip started to really come on and around 3 hours in, my grandparents came home. I am an adult, but they don’t know about my drug use. They wouldn’t care too much, but I would obviously like to avoid them finding out. Luckily, through many trip’s experience I am able to communicate pretty well while tripping. We talked for 15 or 20 minutes then they went to watch TV. ‘Finally’, I thought. I can now smoke the DMT. 

I went into my room to prepare for the trip. Looking back, this was very stupid of me, but I didn’t wait for my Grandparents to go to sleep, I thought I would be fine. Little did I know, this planted a seed of anxiety in me that would cause some problems. I cleaned off my bed, said a prayer, and then turned the lights off, anticipating what was about to happen. Even before I hit it, the closed eye visuals were quite strong. All of the little blobs of light we usually see with our eyes closed were multiplied in a symmetric manner, making it look like I was looking at the starry night sky with my eyes closed. It was time. I took my first hit, bringing as much vapor into my lungs as I possibly could, holding it for as long as I could. Right when I blew out the slightly sweet vapor that tasted of mothballs, the DMT began to take effect. Right away I felt an intense vibration in my body. The symmetrical, geometrical LSD Closed Eye Hallucinations became rounder, and I felt a sense like I was taking off. WIth my eyes closed, I started to see in the distance what looks like the lava lakes in the nether from minecraft. A dull orange flat surface. This is something that I had seen in both of my previous DMT experiences. I started to take my second hit, and mid way through holding my breath the trip started to take hold so much that I felt there was no way I could take a third hit. The Orange surface was still way in the distance, but closer to my field of vision started to appear some very weird things. Complex, constantly changing lines and shapes would come up to me, spin around and do some weird stuff, and then change into something completely different and weird, only to change again. It is really impossible to truly remember the experience, even what I am writing right now is just a hint at what happened. Before I hit the DMT, I was trying to remember what I was seeing in my previous DMT experiences, but I couldn’t. But right when the DMT took hold it was like, ‘That’s right! That's what was happening”. Keep in mind this is like within seconds of the second hit.

 All of the sudden, a tremendous sense of fear swept over me. At first, this fear was caused by the sheer intensity and weirdness of the experience. But then a thought came into my head that set things astray. ‘What if my Grandparents need something and come into my room. I won’t be able to speak or anything and they will know I’m on drugs’. This freaked me out and I began to panic. At one point I even seriously considered crawling out my window and hiding so if they came in I wouldn’t have to deal with it. While this was happening, I began to see the figure of people everywhere. Like, the literal outlines of peoples bodies, standing there. It was kind of like shadow people, but much more real. The outline of the body wouldn’t stay too long before it would morph back into the constantly changing hallucinations. At one point, I opened my eyes and there was literally somebody in my room. This freaked me the fuck out, as I’ve never had deliriant level hallucinations from a psychedelic before. The other deliriant like hallucination I had is with my eyes closed, I found myself in a completely different room, what looked to be almost like a house party, with a huge crowd of people in it. This was very disorienting. The people didn’t seem to be entities, it almost felt like a hall of lost souls or something. What was different from a deliriant though, is that deliriant hallucinations tend to be based around darkness, they always kind of look like a shadow. These hallucinations were colorful and incredibly vivid. To this day these are the most vivid hallucinations I’ve ever experienced. 

I wanted the experience to end right there, and the fact that it couldn’t just fed my panic. What also fed my panic is that I had no way to know how much time was passing. At that point, I started calling out to Jesus. Now, keep in mind, I am not really Christian by any means, but I was so utterly terrified it’s all I felt I could do. Suddenly, I realized there WAS a way for me to keep track of time. My grandparents were watching TV, and I could hear the episode going from the other room. I knew as long as that episode was playing they wouldn’t come into my room, and it kind of provided a reference for how much time was passing. I looked up into the stars from the window behind me and said “Thank you Jesus!”. I also started meditating upon the name of Ram, something I am very used to. I was still terrified, just less so. I began singing the “Hush little baby don’t say a word, Mamas gonna buy you a mockingbird” song to myself, a song that my Mother used to sing to me as a boy. This greatly calmed me down. Ironically, later in the evening when the trip had subsided I was listening to Terrance Mckenna and he said singing is a great way to ease fear in a bad trip. I had never heard him say that before I sang to myself.

I was still tripping balls on both substances, but the DMT had subsided enough for me to get up, so I turned the lights on which greatly helped with the seeing people everywhere. I decided to pick up the only object I had to comfort me, my guitar. I began to play the intro to Bertha by the Grateful Dead, I didn’t know why at first, it's like I couldn’t think of anything else to play, it was like it was implanted into my head. So, I decided to play the whole song and sing it. This made me realize why someone or something wanted me to play it. The lyrics of that song are about having a bad trip, and I didn’t realize it until now. I will write the lyrics and explain how they relate to my experience. 

“I had a hard run, running from your window, I was all night running, Lord I wonder if you care”

 - This represented my running from the fear and terror of a bad trip. I really was wondering if God cared at all what was happening. 

“I had a run in, a run around in the run down, run around the corner, Lord I run smack into a tree” 

• This last line I think is what truly brought me out of the bad trip. The character of 

the song is trying so hard to run from something, and after a long night of running, right around the corner he runs right into a tree. This made me break out in laughter, and allowed me to have a sense of humor about the predicament I had ultimately placed myself in. 

“Dressed myself in green, I went down under the sea, tryna see what’s going down, Lord and read between the lines”  

• This is exactly why I took the DMT and LSD. I was trying to disguise myself and see what was happening under the ocean (the psychedelic realm). 

“I had a feeling I was falling, Lord I turn around to see, heard a voice a calling, you was a running after me”

- I definitely felt like I was falling there for a minute. 



“Ran into a rainstorm, I ducked back into a bar door, it was all night pouring, pouring, Lord but not a drop on me. Test me test me, why don’t you arrest me, bring me down to the jailhouse, Lord until the sun goes down”

• This was a really important one for me in the moment. For one, I thought, why does life work that way? Why do some days you can never seem to get a break, your run smack into a tree after an already hard day. Then some days, not a drop of rain gets on your head. I think the second part of the lyrics are saying, no matter what happens, you're gonna be okay. If you did decide to jump out the window and were brought to the jailhouse (Which probably would have happened) Its still all going to be okay. 

So This song really saved me. Within a few minutes, the DMT wore off. The DMT was so utterly weird and powerful, that being on the peak of an LSD trip basically felt normal. I was grateful to have maken it through. I then played my guitar for a few more hours until I came down. All the way until I fell asleep I could very faintly still see the outlines of people with my eyes closed. All in all, this was the most powerful hallucinogenic experience I have ever had. If you are planning to take DMT, but especially this combination, be extremely, extremely careful. DMT is the most powerful hallucinogen on the planet and it really is not something to mess around with. If I didn’t have previous psychedelic and meditation experience under my belt, I’m pretty sure I would have jumped out of the window.  All in all I think it was a good experience and it renewed my respect for both compounds.