I believed for a time that while we all possess masculine and feminine traits. Like yin and yang, a little bit of each other in ourselves. Most of it was nurtured by predefined ideas that came from society. Thus you were shaped into this role. But drugs have sort of shifted this opinion. 2CB, MDMA, LSD, and shrooms have all gotten me more in touch with my gender, but it feels much more primal, raw, and human. True to my core. It feels good being a man, and (to me) there was derived a lot of truth from society's defined roles of what it means to be masculine. This goes hand-in-hand with how in-touch I feel with my sexual side on drugs. I feel like I'm connecting with my girl friend on a tribal level where no word is spoken only our masculine and feminine energy is speaking to each other. I go absolutely feral as she just possesses this energy, not doing anything in particular to achieve it. She just is.

Explaining all of this is incredibly hard as there is so much nuance; very abstract yet so many details. Feels sort of weird as well as I am very respectful of people's non-traditional gender roles and I agree that everything is on a spectrum. However, I am taken aback at how strongly drugs have made me connect with traditional masculinity. And let me say THIS... everytime I trip I am left in absolute awe of the feminine. I am obsessed. Such a powerful entity/spirit that lives inside a woman's body. So ancient. So soft. So gentle. I am incredibly attracted to it and I pay it so much respect when it reveals itself in front of me (see last time: wavy trees haha).

Are the drugs only expanding on my nurture or am I connecting with my nature?

Words can only explain so much. I am of course a heterosexual male, so I would be very interested in hearing about what non-hetero or non-males would have to share on this!