So I have ridiculous health related panic disorder. I have a fear of basically everything health related, for the last 10 years I have obsessed over having a heart attack etc it's ruining my life and things need to change. It was so bad that I'm even scared to drink a red bull incase I die... sounds stupid I know.

However that aside, I'd like to know how to take my first shrooms without freaking out that I'll die, how do I fight this type of anxiety? I know I won't die but my brain won't let that process.

I've been on propranolol and sertraline for years to combat the issues but I still have the fear, I just don't get the panic attacks anymore.

I'm hoping to fix myself with mushrooms and microdosing etc as the ssri medication is so shit.

Any advice is greatly appreciated, even if its just hearing from someone who has the same mental issues.