So...I think I could have a sort of death phobia but it's not up to me but to the people I care, I'm also borderline so I have a favorite person, who is the person I have the pure fear to lose and that's my best friend. When I'm not with her the fear of her to die it's almost overwhelming, I think about everything, suicide (she's very suicidal), car accident, ictus , cancer ecc.. it gets worse in the night time and I had developed a very bad insomnia. Obsessive, and intrusive thoughts are related to my girlfriend too sometimes ( for her I have the more "classic" fear of losing her due to border, and depression). I'm in therapy but I can take anxiety barely under control thanks to meds. I have an extremely anxious mother and I think that this extremely anxious environment is the main reason I have this problem. I started to have this phobia with anxiety crisis when I was 7, nobody took me to a psychiatrist or something, my parents made extremely fun of me, my mum called me "dog" 'cause I used to loose control on my breath, causing a sort of "dog breathing". I have this problem for 15 years, I'm done, I really need to talk with someone who's dealing with something similar.