It’s been 2 months and 6 days since we ended. Hays. I miss every part of her. :(

She sent me a lengthy email yesterday with all the pain, sadness, and anger that she's feeling. I still blame myself for everything that happened to us. Well, maybe ako talaga ang rason bakit kami puro away noon at puro sigawan kahit nung kami pa.

Hayyy. May parte sakin na baka di na talaga kami magkakabalikn. Well, I cheated eh. Long story short, I messaged a girl that she was uncomfortable with, and I did it cause of impulse and not thinking. Siguro di na nga talaga, noh?

Pero part of me hopes pa rin. Kahit matagal pa, kahit ilang taon pa. I was supposed to propose to her next year. I had it all planned. Pero damn, I just fucked up the greatest relationship I ever had.

This is me trying to be better. I scheduled a therapy session for next week. I should’ve done this years ago. But fuck. Hayyyy. Lagi nalang ako late.

To you, mahal ko, sana balang araw ay gumaan na loob mo at mawala na lahat ng galit at sakit. Magiging okay din ang lahat sa dulo. Andito lang ako, lagi naman kita i-che cheer kahit magkalayo na tayo. Sana balang araw magkita ule tayo, pag okay na tayo parehas.

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