I guess I've been strugling for quite a while now and to think I still have no idea what I should be doing with my life.

Ever since I was a kid I always saw my self as having figured it out at this age but to my surprise I barely have anything to hold on to. No love life, Sturggling with work, Family isn't what I thought it would be. You could say I am barely living my life as I should be or what other tell you to do those things are easier said than done. Maybe I am just struggling to find what I really want in life? Or maybe have no inspiration or motivation. I feel like I keep disappointing the people around me for my mediocore or non-existent achievements and trust me it does eat me away in the back of my head but I just don't show it.

I guess I just really what to know why I am even here in the first place? Is there really a happy ending or something to this whole grand scheme ? Maybe am just here to pass everything by with having a second thought about my life kinda like ending a chapter in a book. Having a look back a things I really do regret not taking certain chances and putting more effort into things I had interest in.

But now everything just feels dead to me. Maybe I am dead to everyone else as well and I'm starting to slowly accept that I actually am.

Maybe, just maybe something good can come out of all of this that can make things worth living again.