hi im just a guy who is scared , axious , hopeful , and just recently tried to kill myself.

so this shit started this sunday me and my gf of 9yrs end things ( well we havent talked out it yet tho) i do still hope she comesback and still picks me as her lifepartner she packed up and left coz im a toxic sob and i hate myself for it

after 30 yrs of living in this world full of hurt hate sadness i recently acknowledge i need help and am currently seeking professional help. of course i do accept nonpro help.

long storyshort i just need someone to talk to a complete total stranger to vent all this out and get it off my chest. i would really like a stranger to avoid all judgement

pls let me know if i can get a minute of your time. thank you