Hi,

I just want to say I'm sorry for not telling you everything I wanted to before we stopped talking. I was afraid for reasons I can't explain. One of them is the idea of hurting you and leaving you in pain. I didn't want to let you go. I didn't want what we had to end. But I had to make a choice. As you know, I wanted to have kids someday, a family of my own. And I want to start it somewhere far away. But I know you didn't want to have kids. For some reason, I had hoped you'd change your mind, but I guess I was wrong. I blame myself for not expressing my hopes in that matter or my feelings, especially about religion. I know I said that I was prepared to move to yours as long as I could be with you. But as days went by, I started to change my mind, which is why I didn't talk about religion or anything related to it, fearing it might trigger heated arguments.

I'm sorry for being a coward, for not telling you everything that was on my mind, for holding back. The biggest regret I have is not hugging you tightly before I left to get on the plane. That's something I'll always regret.

Now, I want to say thank you. Thank you for everything. For the laughs we've had. For the comfort and hugs you've given me. For staying by my side during my lowest moments. For loving me the way I love you. If I had a chance to do it all again but with the same ending, as stupid as it is, I would still take it. You gave me hope when I thought I wasn't worth it. You made me feel like the luckiest man alive. You made me feel alive. Thank you so much for everything.

I wish you nothing but the best. Take care.