My father and isang dog namin, passed last April. And yung dog ko talaga died last June 1st. In between, may problems financially, yung health ko nagdedeteriorate, ang gulo sa bahay, yung relatives ni Papa may threats na paalisin kami and all.

As the panganay and breadwinner, hindi ko na kaya. Nag-attacks na ko one time, the doctors insisted na high blood lang ako pero I know it was different. A cousin in med told me na it's prolly stress-induced breakdown and a friend in psych told me na it's a panic attack.

Nag dorm ako now para makahinga pero I'm still haunted. Almost every night pa rin akong nagbebreakdown. I'm trying to write my thoughts pero hindi nagwowork para akong nababaliw. Parang gusto ko sumigaw na ewan.

I badly want to breathe. And ppl cant seem to understand why I need a break.