Hello! 22F here. Over three years ago, I was in a semi-serious relationship. I did not like her that much, but I stuck around because I was lonely and depressed, and she seemed to be in the same boat. Di ko mafeel na gusto nya talaga ko. I think I may have also cheated on her emotionally, but none of us acknowledged it. Since I broke up with her, I haven't had any serious or semi-serious relationship. I have only been playing around with random girls I meet through the Internet, mostly through r4r.

Lately, I find myself craving emotional intimacy, and I have been thinking about finding a girlfriend again, especially now that I'm finally recovering from mental illness. However, the more I think about it, the scarier it seems.

Friends always tell me about their exes/current relationships. Apparently, some people can be extremely toxic towards you, no matter how much you love them. Also, some people simply do not light a spark in you, no matter how kind and stable they are.

Nakakatakot talaga. I think I'd rather be alone than be with the wrong person.