Hi I’m 19M and I’ve never been in a true relationship with anyone in my life. A lot of my friends would say I’m a “Lover boy” and I can be sensitive, so you’d think I’d find one quite easily. I know I’m attractive because I’ve been told that many times (not trying to sound full of myself), but I can be a bit shy because I feel so unsure about a lot of things that have to do with a relationship. Growing up I never really felt desired by anyone or even thought I could be until senior year in highschool. It was then when my friend gave me a wake up call and helped me see how many women would acc lust for a guy who looked like me (I had a lot of attractive physical attributes). I then gave it a try. I worked on my confidence and began to pursue women. I made some progress and I don’t kind of start to build myself a “roster”. Even though I say that I do respect women like any other kind of person. And then nearing the end of highschool I had finally found the one who I thought could be my other half and I chose to pursue them. But not long after I had found out this person didn’t want any kind of physical intimacy and I felt defeated. Not saying that that is the only thing I desire but just something I wanted and expected to come with it as it makes people feel closer. ATP I decided to not think much of it and continue to pursue and grow our relationship/connection. Fast forward a couple months and it didn’t end up working out. She couldn’t give me the things I wanted in a relationship and I was getting sick of putting in so much and receiving what seemed like nothing. Afterwards I gave myself time to heal and then I tried to pursue it again. This time I had no luck and have had none since. It’s hard seeing everyone around you get in and out of intimate relationships so easily and I get left alone. I often feel forgotten and unappreciated sometimes and I really really crave “love”. But now I feel like I don’t even know what receiving love even feels like, but I know that I would have so much to give. Could anyone help me out, maybe there is something I’m not seeing or not doing right.

Sorry if this was long and all over the place I was just kind of pouring my feelings out here cuz I’ve never gotten a chance to. I have a lot I want to say but i tried to sum it up as best I can.