Since late August (when I relapsed after 32 days), I haven't been able to get back on track. I keep relapsing over and over. In September my mother, grandmother and sister found out about my addiction. I'm only 15 and it has really taken its toll on me. My mother doesn't trust me anymore and my longest streak since her finding out, was 14 days and I haven't been able to get anywhere near that since. I pray everyday with my grandmother and before I sleep but I feel like I'm just lying to God everytime I do that because I end up relapsing. Today I relapsed and I don't want to pray till I've had a shower in the morning.

I really need support / tips on how to fight these urges and advances from the Devil. I keep succumbing to him and I know it's wrong and I know that I've committed a mortal sin. I'm now afraid of going to hell and my lying to God and my family.

I read online that Masturbation is a mortal sin and that it is one of the worst (nearly up there with murder). I don't want to go to hell for something I can control so easily if I focus. At age 15 I'm finding this really tough to do because of my raging hormones but I know it's wrong despite what society tells us. I just want to get back on track with God and my life in general.

Advice really appreciated. Thank you