I just relapsed yesterday after a 167 day streak and have PMO'd three times in less than 24 hours.

Let me just start by saying this: It is not even half as enjoyable as you remember it.

I'm being 100% honest when I say that there was not a single moment during my binge that I thought to myself, "Hmm, yeah this is a good choice and it's making me feel better about myself." Every single fucking moment of each and every time I PMO'd I was in pure and utter regret. Every. Single. Time.

My friends, there is no safe haven when you return to the life you have left. You left it for a reason. And a damn good reason at that. Don't believe the lies you hear in the back of your head. Don't even begin to let those voices sway your determination.

IT IS ALL A LIE. Don't be tricked like I was. Please.

I've never meant it anymore than I do right now when I say: Stay Strong Brothers.