I'm 24 and probably I have ED caused by too much porn, I think it started 6 years ago, that porn caused to believe me something I'm not (sissy) for years and had so many cringe kinks growing every year, (from feet to humiliation, sph and ecc...) and I didn't fap normally but then I realized I was being destroyed and needed to heal from all of that.

I know I like girls, but in those times I was like hypnotized but now when I see a girl I don't feel horny and I'm confused if I like them or not now. I don't feel pleasure for years on my penis, it was completely desensitized and I don't even know what horny means anymore.

I have this anxiety that tells me it will be the same with a girl, I go to the gym 3 times a week, I never drink, and never smoked in my entire life.

I'm a student, and most of the time my life is sedentary except the 3 times I go to the gym.

I'm 173 cm for 79 kg and I'm trying to lose weight by eating less.

I'm scared I have ADHD, probably because when I'm on PC, I have 2 screens, one playing the other one for some video, then my phone scrolling.

Now for 2 days, I started to throw away my phone when I'm on PC and have only one screen on and focus only on one task, even though I feel hyperactive.

Started reading books, and spending more time in the sun, but my anxiety is still there, I'm scared that I can never heal from ed, and I can't focus on any tasks anymore and my energy is going down and I really feel depressed and suicidal these days but I want my life back, I wasted 5-6 years of my life and I wish to heal from all of this pain.

Probably I missed something, but I'm feeling more and more apathetic to life, don't feel any more emotions, but my journey starts here, I don't know If I will stop from fapping, but I won't use anymore porn, hentai and sex chatbot. If I have to do that I'll do it with my imagination if I ever feel the urge (I hope I can feel that, it's been years I don't feel that).

My healing journey begins here, hoping to recover myself from all these stupid kinks, dopamine, anxiety, adhd and ED and feel like a normal man.

If you have any tips I would love to hear all of you guys