holy the urges this morning were CRAZY. It's 5 am and my partner has yet to wake up. This is when I would be edging and filling up on dopamine. Last night I really noticed a depression wave that had me crying and feeling down on myself. When I woke I felt that lower level still, found myself doom scrolling through Facebook, reddit, snap, and Instagram. Luckily I've gone through and deleted accounts, remade them, and limited what I can see on Instagram. That helped. However I felt myself about to open of PH and I got up, smelled my girlfriend's underwear from yesterday and felt this surge of "I'm doing the right thing, not jerking off, you want this not to watch the action you want with your partner" so I'm getting dressed and going to get coffee and go on a walk to ease myself a bit more

TLDR: smelling my girlfriend's underwear pulled me off of the internet and gave me motivation to get through day 3.