I feel so empty when i think how little I meant to her. She was still checking in a few times a year, but those interactions have become colder and more distant because I felt like I was hanging out with a stranger. I won’t respond to her hoover attempts any longer because her presence saddens me, and eventually the hoover attempts will stop. And then I’ll never know her again. She’s lost into the void of the universe. And my time with her were the best moments of my life. I’ve never loved someone so much. She’s been a constant thought on my mind for like 3 years now. And I was just a little blip on her radar. She will run the exact same scam, in some degree, that she did to me to hundreds of men in her lifetime. Her disorder will take her strange places with strange people doing things she will be ashamed of. Then she’ll bury all those horrible feelings into someone new. I was just someone she buried her shame in for a little while