Hi, y’all! I’m in undergrad, on line, and I have absolutely NO greeks in my family. The membership chair in the chapter (grad chapter since my campus doesn’t have a charter) has repeatedly told us that a neophyte presentation/step show is completely optional, but at the same time, I feel like I’d look bad if I didn’t do one. I have no rhythm, hand-eye coordination, or fine motor skills; basically, nothing required to step and stroll without looking crazy. I’m having massive amounts of anxiety over this. I don’t want to let anybody down, and I don’t want to be seen as “paper,” but at the same time, I don’t wanna risk passing out in front of everybody. What makes it worse is that if I did decide to do a neophyte presentation, there’s only 2 of us, and I'm a plus-size girl while the other girl isn’t. I just feel like I’d be setting myself up for embarrassment.

What do y’all suggest I do? Should I tell the membership chair that I don’t want to do one? I’m hoping I can do a video so I can get the best of both worlds.