Long time Covert, first time poster. Wanted to present something Ive been doing with a fair amount of success. Wondering if people are doing this work within themselves, and having some luck with it.

This post is about narcissistic supply. A couple years ago, I made a unintentional switch of my main supply. The vast majority of my supply used to be the friends I would surround myself with. The old me would surround myself with attractive, charismatic, successful people. It made me feel like I was in the upper end of society, and helped me disassociate from my thoughts of feeling like I was complete shit. Over the years, I realized many of these friends of mine were awful. Either Narcs themselves, or just plain inconsiderate people. Then I met a new set of friends, who operated in a completely different way. They weren't as grandiose in their presence. A lot of them didn't live all that exciting of lives but they had one thing that was so so different than so many of my friends before. Authenticity. Being with them didn't have the same kind of supply affect as before, but did come with a feel of an inherent goodness. It wasnt a high, but more of a steadiness.

Over time I've started switch my supply over to healthier things. Finding friends who are good for the soul. Taking care of them and seeing them happy gives me a fair amount of supply. I exercise regularly, and the things I do in the outdoors definitely gives me a different kind of supply. I've turned this constant need for external self esteem, into something that benefits the people around me and myself. Deep down inside, I do still feel like I am the same hardcore selfish person, but even the internal thought patterns are starting to dismantle. Has anyone experienced this? Or gone down this path?