The first time I questioned my gender was at 16 when I cosplayed Sailor Moon at Comic Con, and enjoyed it WAY too much, I remembered kinda laughing to myself like, "wait, what's going on here?' 😅

Then for 7 years id always said that I'd love to wear girls clothes cause they're just so much cooler, but I always felt like Id want to be more feminine in my body before I could dress like that

I know I can just be a guy with a beard who happens to wear dresses, but I just really don't want that for myself

But then out of curiosity I just bought some lingerie and felt, fucking, incredible, I've been on MDMA before and it was a similar feeling. Like seriously Holy fuck

For the past year I've been presenting very femme whenever I have alone time., I've been out dressed fem a couple times but couldn't stand the feeling of EVERYONE looking at me strange, I'm determined to push through though cause the urge is so strong

I'm still determined to keep doing that but it's been a year since I said I wanted to get HRT because I want a feminine physique

Ive been non binary for a year now, and I'm going to the doctor to talk of gender dysphoria soon to see if I actually want hormones, I talked with my gf and the feeling we described is 'non-binary'as a defense mechanism to battle dysphoria'

Idk it's 4am where I am and I'm just rambling, hope this makes sense?? 😅 I've always felt more feminine as a guy but the urge to keep presenting as such keeps getting stronger, and if I dress fem I get both euphoria and dysphoria, the dysphoria comes from wanting to look like a woman though

I just feel like an imposter sometimes, I wonder if other people have an experience similar to my story??