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I should be overjoyed as my dose is pretty much holding me and I have 1 more blue to smoke tonight and say goodbye.
Why does it feel like I'm mourning? I guess the idea that nothing else will give me that relaxed feeling and yeah that's probably a good thing. But it feels like I'm losing a friend. Don't get me wrong, I'm ready, I want to be clean. I understand it's my brain and I'll eventually feel good again. But for now it feels like I'm saying goodbye. Weird emotions
I know that feeling well. And it always led to relapse also (for me). But Iāve heard it echoed from many users, including some who were clean for the rest of their lives. Itās just a very twisted feeling that happens and I think it may help to find new and better āfriends.ā Music, nature, art, philosophy, meditation, hikingā¦. I dunno, whatever can get you somewhere mentally that this infinitely dark and heavy so-called friend could never get you.
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