I am married and love my wife but our relationship has changed as she has lost much of her desire for sex due to a loss of female hormones. I am wanting sex and memories of before I was married surface and giving me thoughts to consider.

I was in college and studied many hours at the library where I made good friends with one of the male workers. He became interested in me and admitted privately he was gay and felt attracted to me. Over a couple of months of talking to him at the library I finally agreed to invite him over to my private room later that evening. He arrived and we talked more and he asked if I would let him try and give me oral saying that no one would know and if I wanted to stop any time that it was ok. I was already aroused by his visit as I had an idea he wanted more than just talking.. so we went into my bedroom and both of us undressed. I laid back and open my legs for his access and WOW.. I found that I totally love this.. best I have ever felt and so sensual. When I was finished he asked if I wanted to try him and I did.. he was much smaller but it was a turn on feeling his orgasm as I sucked. So there I was.. I enjoyed having a trusted friend for sexual pleasures.

After college when married I never did any more with a man. But now my mind is thinking back and wonder how to find a friends that I am attracted to for mutual pleasure like I can enjoy doing.