I have a feeling that this may not actually be the right place to post this because what I read here is everybody Is wanting to move forward in their relationship

I'm kind of the opposite

I'm a person who loves my independence and who likes living alone. I wasn't looking for a relationship. I was looking for some fun intimacy

As it is I have fallen madly and deeply in love and I'm in the healthiest and best relationship of my life

I'm in my 60s so this is not my first rodeo by a long long stretch

There is not a single thing I could complain about in my relationship.

Honest it's that good

She's coming to spend over a month with me.

We've been at this for nearly 2 years. I miss her when she's not here.

I feel like we're beginning to get to a crossroads where it might be time to start thinking about the next steps.

And I find Myself freezing

To be clear there's 0 pressure for us to live closer

We're both pretty independent so I think if I said this is good for now she would be fine

Part of me wants to just jump in in way I've never wanted to jump in in my entire life

I'm just wondering if there's anybody else that feels this way

I'm not somebody who believes in soulmate or has neem looking for forever love. I'm not opposed to it but my journey has been a bit different than that and I have just found peoples longing and longing and longing to be rather a turn off more than anything else

I want to just be excited that she's on her way but I'm actually feeling very anxious